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    August 28

    stop for a while and go on for school life

    Aug 28,september is coming which means new term will begin again.Seemly,being a student has been a habit in my mind so that hope to go back to school at this time every year.Leaving out school for two months, almost a totally deffient life with the time in school, working as office lady:),though only for a month.Last friday, I have got my pay for the first time.Exciting, achievement feeling should come together totally however almost nothing at all.The pay even cannot cover the fee in shanghai.Anyway, I still spent the half of the month to buy something for myself.
    what ever I decided to leave here the day after tomorrow and go on my school life temporarily.

    Aug 28,september is coming which means new term will begin again.Seemly,being a student has been a habit in my mind so that hope to go back to school at this time every year.Leaving out school for two months, almost a totally deffient life with the time in school, working as office lady:),though only for a month.Last friday, I have got my pay for the first time.Exciting, achievement feeling should come together totally however almost nothing at all.The pay even cannot cover the fee in shanghai.Anyway, I still spent the half of the month to buy something for myself.
    what ever I decided to leave here the day after tomorrow and go on my school life temporarily.
    August 24

    今天第一次很有working sense

    普通的一天不一样的感觉。今天上班觉得特别舒服,也许是因为路上不在寂寞,也许是因为本来要迟到的,地铁公汽都特给面子,准时到公司,还是头两个到的。唉,其实上班真实辛苦,就算每天坐着对着电脑,还是当学生比较幸福,仅指大学生,有的是自由时间,全部是自己的时间。
     
    今天让我突然很有白领的感觉,上司不在,我们组也就我一个留守公司,哈哈,一个上午好忙啊,时间不知不觉的就过去了,处理了几件事感觉好充实,呵呵。
     
    面对职场,我是彻彻底底的flesh,原来觉得出来实习,终于可以走出学校到一个更大的空间展示自己。到了才发现,其实工作很普通,很平常,也很机械。每天忙碌着类似的东西,其实有东西忙感觉就已经很不错了,我这个小打杂的有东西学有东西做其实都是很幸福的一件事。最可怕的是周围的人都在忙,就你一个人坐那发呆,这种感觉真的很难受:(要是是份正式的工作,那离fired也不远了。
     
    忙碌与空闲其实是件很矛盾的事,忙了就辛苦了,就累了,就体力不支了,就老的快了,天那,我的皮肤气色就都完了;闲了就无聊了,就郁闷了,就想一些不该想的事了,闲些日子就被炒了,天那,要没饭碗了。女人就是麻烦!
     
    决定开学回学校了,回去干什么呢,恩,要好好想想了。
    August 22

    我要快点长大了

    看了好朋友的BLOG,突然感触良多,原来大家都有长大,都有努力,我要加油。
    加油长大,加油学习,加油工作!!!
     
    怎么女人这么善变呢,都搞不懂自己,上午才纳闷自己是不是人不老心先老,下午就感叹快点长大!

    难道是老了?不会吧

    夏天似乎已经远了,上海这两天开始凉快的不觉得还在八月,今天又下雷阵雨了,狂风大做,今晚不用开空调咯。

     

    我好象漫漫开始习惯每天花三个半小时在路上了,四号线三号线,公车,地铁外加走路,每天赶路成了上班最累的一部分。上海的地铁真是要命,人啊人。地铁里的人似乎也都习惯了这种拥挤的生活,看报的看报,听歌的听歌,发呆的发呆,一脸茫然的人最多,也许脑子有运动吧,天晓得。大家陌生的可怕,即使在这狭小的空间,即使有时候眼睛对眼睛,脸对脸。赶路的生活久了,也习惯了,也麻木了,就像我开头两天觉得好远好远,走多了也就这样了,只是每天重复着一样的路线,一样的走路,三号线四号线,公车。

     

    今天早上突然又看到那个外国姐姐了,不认识,只是上班下班莫名其妙的在一班车上,一个车厢,也许是她特别好认吧,超高的个头,大大的体形,好有压迫感,所以总能在人群中一眼看到她。每天在变的是她的衣服,每天不变的是车上看书,和那一成不变的表情。

     

    原来以为自己是喜欢汹涌的人群和快节奏的生活,赶路,上班,血拼,睡觉,每天充满挑战,充满新鲜。突然觉得错了,自己想要的不是这样的生活,不是这样的习惯和一成不变,特别是一个人的时候,面对地铁汹涌的人群,发觉自己很弱小,好想有人可以牵着手,自己就默默的跟着走。

     

    难道我老了?应该不会吧

     

    难道是老了?不会吧

    夏天似乎已经远了,上海这两天开始凉快的不觉得还在八月,今天又下雷阵雨了,狂风大做,今晚不用开空调咯。

     

    我好象漫漫开始习惯每天花三个半小时在路上了,四号线三号线,公车,地铁外加走路,每天赶路成了上班最累的一部分。上海的地铁真是要命,人啊人。地铁里的人似乎也都习惯了这种拥挤的生活,看报的看报,听歌的听歌,发呆的发呆,一脸茫然的人最多,也许脑子有运动吧,天晓得。大家陌生的可怕,即使在这狭小的空间,即使有时候眼睛对眼睛,脸对脸。赶路的生活久了,也习惯了,也麻木了,就像我开头两天觉得好远好远,走多了也就这样了,只是每天重复着一样的路线,一样的走路,三号线四号线,公车。

     

    今天早上突然又看到那个外国姐姐了,不认识,只是上班下班莫名其妙的在一班车上,一个车厢,也许是她特别好认吧,超高的个头,大大的体形,好有压迫感,所以总能在人群中一眼看到她。每天在变的是她的衣服,每天不变的是车上看书,和那一成不变的表情。

     

    原来以为自己是喜欢汹涌的人群和快节奏的生活,赶路,上班,血拼,睡觉,每天充满挑战,充满新鲜。突然觉得错了,自己想要的不是这样的生活,不是这样的习惯和一成不变,特别是一个人的时候,面对地铁汹涌的人群,发觉自己很弱小,好想有人可以牵着手,自己就默默的跟着走。

     

    难道我老了?应该不会吧

     

    August 21

    learn to release

    Shanghai to Hangzhou
    Hangzhou to Shanghai
    My life is on the road recently.
    Tied, lonely,and tied, lonely.
    Lost in the ways.
    My God!
    so many things are waiting for me why I hestate to do anything.
    Only want to do is to have a sweet dream, sleep all the morning, watch TV all day long ,all day long!
    I have to learn release!
    Maybe have a sunshine afternoon with the friends or him or family.Maybe drink a hot coffee in the cold winnter.Maybe that is what I want.
    Lose is a skill,learn to release!

    happy time

    waiting waiting and waiting but happy and exciting :)waiting for someone haha:)
     
    discover that waiting is excellent but also aweful
    August 17

    Another time.
    Hope to visit here for a long time however I am busy recently :( Applying for schools and the intership make me tied,tied, and tied.
    Maybe I am wrong from the beginning. Walking with a heavy load alone,I felt tied.
    I am not the one who are good at making decision so that I am often lost facing to two or more ways .
    There is a saying that only experience can make us grow.
    LIfe do not need luxury ,do not need much decoration.